The outlook | pure712's Blog
So, I just read the book act like a lady think like a man. And wow. I am an emotional creature who has been through a lot but trick is I want love in my life. Love from a man, sex is a great perk for us but I'm looking for my best friend. Now in reading this book it's not such a bad thing just have to make clear what you want. Andi think I've made a big mistake by loving so hard to a man who did some right some wrong but he supported loved cared played with intimate with took my virginaty I cook clean massage him cater to him and he left. Question is why? Is it because I got multiple sclerosis, because he became a good money makin pro boxer because he got bored what.but can't get him outa my head and I want to like a lot a lot but beyond the love of my life destroying my heart and soul. I've learned something I'm starting to get back to feeling beautiful. Sure there are people who intimidate me people that make me feel ugly. I thought. I was getting my confidence back but I'm not.one thing I can say is dee wants things that happening slowly but her other have want it right fuckin now and a 1/4 of her is like fuck it I failed already. Today I drove alone for the first time again after my MS. It's like when people ask you stuff about yo body and y this do this you just wanna say I got Multiple Sclerosis that's what's wrong bitch. Can you fix dat. I'm so full of rage . I just wanna get my DMM and be and look and feel normal again I'm so full of rage it's not even anger nomore it's rage. It's like I want something so got damn bad I'm like killin myself to get me back my body my hair my dancer my balance my voice my confidence myself the me I knew not the me. I guess this break down will make a good story one day but today I'm crying a lot of memories are gone but his are fresh. I want.... Nvm it ain't gone happen I need to move back to daytona and start a fresh. There, friends, might move to g.a to be with family, I just figured it out I want something beautiful friendship.bottom line my insecurity will fade my loneliness will disappear and despite want for love will no longer be despite. Question is how do I get it.
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